Tuesday, March 06, 2007

i totally agree.

i don't want a three stories big house with a swimming pool and a hot tub and a library and mirrors on the ceiling. [tho that'd b really nice.]

i don't need tons of cash where i can shop wherever i want and have sales people at my beck and call. [but oh.. how nice.]

i don't crave a fantastic job where i can order people around and have them scurry to do my bidding like busy little ants. [tho that'd be really fun.]

when rae told me her aunt predicted i'll have some ceo job and i'd be earning more then my spouse i was pretty horrified. i think i'm so down-to-earth on most things. in primary school, i wrote an essay on how my dream job was to become a housewife. oh man. i should have been born in the 50s. coupled with the baby-bearing hips thing, i'd be pretty sought after in the marriage mart huh.

wife with child-bearing hips for sale. bag for head sold separately. batteries not included.

when i was younger[like, 7] when i thought of what i wanted in life. i thought to myself. i want to be a good wife and mother. you know the kind.. the subservient woman sitting at home tending the kitchen. when the husband comes home, relief him of his tie and briefcase. ah, straight out of a scene from bewitched. i wanted to be the one who prettied up the house, kept everyone happy. the one my kids would come to when they had a booboo.

i think i've hardly changed. heh. strange that i'm in masscom where it's 70% girls and it's supposed to be like, wooohooo, girl power!

i measure success by the happiness of the people around me and how much they love/hate me. reminds me again of why i love babies. when i have a baby, it'll be forced to love me, to need me. aww. i can go like. *cue bimbo accent* wow. im like.. sooooo important. cos like. i have a human being.. who like, needs me.

bah. im not secure enough to shout out in orchard road, "I LOVE ME! I ABSOLUTELY POSITIVELY SMACK-MY-ASS-JUDY LOVE MYSELF!" yeah. i'm not ready to do that yet. one day i will. someone join me? any takers? [i don't know who judy is. but she seems nice and gentle.]

ah. huge self-admission coming up.. i feel more whole when i'm with someone. it's like, *cue bimbo accent* like yay. cos like, someone likes me. so like, that means i'm an alright person.

so that probably explains the guy craziness and the falling again and again and the inability to let go of things. aha. so pathetic (:

so so.. guys that i like. no big deal. just another save-me-by-using-you tactic mostly. HAH. i win you loseeeeeee.

still very much the girl who sits at the back of the class copying schoolwork and notes. not talking to anyone. scared to talk to anyone rather. i've never been the outgoing one. one of many laments bout myself. that little girl comes out to play very often. when i'm in a situation that i've no control over. or something. i thought i killed her in sec 3! but that bloody girl revived or something.

update on future stuff!
song to play at wedding: i want to grow old with you - adam sandler
girl baby names: dylan amber, alexis jade
boy baby names: micah

i know this part'd be freaky for people who don't know me well. so. thank goodness only good friends read my blog :D. or else i'll come off as some baby-plot-hatching maniac.

*cue bimbo accent* you should like.. totally click on this link. cos like this song is so totally cool. this mum.. who like stays at home, like a stay-at-home mum.. yeah. she wrote it. and it's like, about remembering your dreams from your childhood. and like. i think it's really sweet.. so listen to the lyrics..

country music, y'all~!

faith hill - fireflies

so i reading stevie's blog and it got me thinking that.. he should get a tagboard.

and i just watched american pie: the naked mile. i think singapore should have it too. after exams, college students relief stress by running a mile around campus buck naked.
I WANNA RUN THE NAKED MILE.